26 March 2009

A Meditation.

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive God to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

25 March 2009

Even more excited.

Loving the Arcade Fire backing.

A Change of Mind

I am normally not attracted to chunky shoes...
But these are beautiful. The buckles and straps
and that hot liquid cherry colour. perfect.

This made me smile.

21 March 2009

Spring Broken

It's spring break. I should have left en route to Japan to visit my sister and Tokyo....but my services were needed here.
Of course. I get to spend my break translating scanned images into scaled paintings for a set design, instead of taking business class for 14 hours from San Francisco to Tokyo. To top it all off, around 3 today I got sick. suddenly....just needed a nap and woke up with a cold. Of course.
I have been flooded with interested guys though. Dear God. Its feast or famine when it comes to finding a guy it seems.
So far I've gone out with five. Some have promise, some a little less ( I think because they aren't just yet ready for the "R" word).
They are, however, all brilliant in their own ways and have all surprised me with their personalities. I know that soon I will have to choose one, but right now I am just enjoying hanging out with them and being exposed to their experiences here in New Orleans.
I will say that I do like waking up next to someone, its a comfort like none other I think.
(I've only slept with one....I'm not a scandalous ho bag. And yes, it was worth abandoning the four till you score plan.)

*PS, the guy in the picture is not anyone I know. . . maybe.

19 March 2009

Et maintenant, des mots.

Had bit of fun with my friend Patron Platinum last night after spending about three hours marathon sketching of opera sets. What began as a drink to tide me over before heading to a friends nearby to watch ultimate fighting soon evolved into me displaying some new found aggressive behaviours such as scratching the beards of both the bartender and my neighbor and hitting on and feeling up a guy three times my size. Go me!
My housemate came around after finishing up at house of blues and we headed over to Good Fiends bar and talked about all things relationship related. More drinks were had and it was decided that we were in desperate need of Clover Grill cheeseburgers. I'm not sure why but being a little tipsy makes an ordinary cheeseburger a little like crack to me.


18 March 2009

I can't wait

Les choses qu je vue quand je suis ennui a cinq heure du matin.

J'ai amour sur mon craine.
Je cherche mon prince Charmant, je crois qu'il exisite quelqu'un place.
Est-que c'est un reve idiotique? Dois je reviens a dormir, pour me leve
dans le matin avec le realite qu'il n'existe pas? Pourquois? Quelqu'un ma dit
quand un chasse l'amour, elle se cache desous notre nez. Donc, j'attendrais
avec cette petite reve dans mon coeur.

17 March 2009

No mother-f-ing snakes shall crawl on this mother-f-ing heath!

Happy St. Patrick's Day!
(I hope all of you have as great a time pouring green beverages into your head...'cause I know I will.)

It is said we are hunters, eyes fixed, looking forever forward to the next kill

james jean

1. When doors close others open, sometimes in a matter of minutes.

2. When someone hurts you, repeatedly and seemingly without care, it is
more than ok for you to tell them to Fuck Off.

3. Sometimes half a cupcake is all it takes.

4. pillow top mattresses rock my world.

10 March 2009

fun with photoshop

Master Class

I need to find a figure drawing class...

...James Jean is showing me up again.

Damn theatre and it's non people drawing. I need hands and arms and feet and heads!!!
People like James keep me activated. Like being the new kid at boxing and seeing the
heavyweights and just being in absoute awe...but also in awe that maybe you can get
there too.

09 March 2009


This scene...

this scene always makes me freeze in my tracks, hold my breath, causes a lump to rise in my throat and finally
it makes me shed tears. When my grandmother died a few years ago I wrote the song into her obituary.

08 March 2009

J'adore mes amis

Encore un fois, je dois dit merci a mes amis.
Sans vous le monde est completement dans le noir.

So the weekend started on a down beat.
Enough said about that. The rest was fantastic. Went new places, Saw some new things..some worth seeing
and others I could've done without...but at the same place, so what could I really do.
The show is down now. On to the next one which involves murals. And projection, which I will be learning
about starting tomorrow.

Good moments, bad moments, all moments of existance which I am glad for.
I can't be happy all the time.
And I don't have to be sad all the time either. I just have to live. It's that simple.
I just have to take what is offered to me, make the best choice at that moment and go from there.
It sounds simple...but that is where the joy comes from. I feel liberated in this weekend.
I have a desire to do, and to live that I had before I came back to school in the spring.
Something I found while I was away, but wilted upon return has bloomed again.

06 March 2009

so yeah..

..broke up with the ex again. this time it's over. we tried to be friends and an epic failure was the result.

So last night I felt like crap, as I posted before. Waking up this morning however I feel only a new mass of freedom.
I think what I was feeling was not lingering affection but clinging to an ideology. I had this view of him that I had
blown out of proportion. Like taking all the good parts and blowing them up and only seeing them. I created an
unrealistic point of view. It's nice to be rid of it. Odd how our own minds can create these little prisons for ourselves
because they sub-consciously need things. Realizing that what I need and what I want from people will be a good
thing to work out, to discover. Instead of clinging to the nearest person who gives me a smile.

Today I go to the races. I've never bet on ponies but I've been advised to go for a trifecta....I think that's how you
spell it.

05 March 2009


*the sartorialist

04 March 2009

Featured Artist: Kate Walsh

Sappy. I know. I like it anyway. Parts of it spark memories.

01 March 2009

everybody needs someone to be watching

Have you ever been so busy that your morning cups of tea threaten to establish sovereignty of your bed side table?
Have you ever been so busy that your clean pile and your dirty pile seem, everyday, to have traded places?
Have you ever been so busy that you have a clean pile?
Have you ever been so busy that chips and salsa at 11:00pm is dinner?
Have you ever been so busy that you ought to go to bed, but go out because a guy asks you out and had a great time?
Have you ever been so busy you forget a birthday, a package waiting at the post office, lunch?
Have you ever been so busy feel blessed for getting five hours of sleep?
Have you ever been so busy can't remember the last time you cooked at home?

I'm hoarding all the tea cups in the house. Need to do laundry or at least put away what might possibly be clean.
I need to go grocery shopping. I need to keep going out with guys who are nice to me. I need to take time to attend
to seemingly small things during the day, sleep a bit more, and cook said groceries and eat them.